[Jeff Probst]

This is Jeff's Final Tribal Council Thread.

All other Jurors should remain in their own threads.

Jeff, you have until Sunday at 12c/1e pm to post your statements/questions to the Final 3. Remember not to take up too much of their time as they have 10 other jurors to get to. Please no listing or questions requiring novels for answers. You should post all of your statements/questions in your opening post in this thread.

[Jeff]

What up fam. Congrats on making final 3. I genuinely enjoyed getting to know and talking to all three of you - mostly about the non-game stuff because let's be honest I didn't have much strategic traction with either Steph or Russ and maybe not even Yve. As a result, I find myself needing to rely on this FTC and perspectives from the other jury members to try and learn about your games - which is difficult for me because I highly prefer to judge based on first-hand experiences. I don't feel compelled to vote for any of you, so my vote is very much up for grabs. Own your game, sell your game, and convince me.

I have the same questions for all three of you below but before I get to those, I'd like to "briefly" address that first-hand experience with each of you with general comments.

Also, you don't need to center-align your answers to me. Keep it left-aligned.

We begin.

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Russell

Chris, if you recall during the Nepal FTC, you announced I was out of the running for your vote and didn't even do me the courtesy of asking me a question. I thought that was a dick move. I had half a mind to come in here and complete the circle by doing the same to you, but I don't really have interest in being a dick right now. But please know that is weighing on my mind.

I also relate to the strategy of trying to play the game as a wolf dressed in sheep's goat's clothing. But again, if that wasn't a game you felt was worthy of consideration of your vote when you were the juror and I was the finalist, why should I now?

I am also reminded of a conversation we had in the game about our biggest flaws in the game and I told you I was too trusting in people and always believed them, which is true (see: the in-roads I thought I had with other purple people/Steph below). But with you, every time you spoke game to me I felt like you were lying or blowing smoke up my ass. On more than a few occasions, you'd be talking game to me in one IM and, at the very same time, I'd have someone else talking to me in another IM and they would completely contradict you, while you were still talking to me, and I know I wasn't the only one to feel this way. I'm not sure I see the good gameplay in alienating half the tribe.

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Stephanie

Steph, right or wrong, my perception of the game during my whopping two post-merge rounds was that we were all biding the time creating cross-tribal line connections to prepare for when the game busted open. I thought you were a good potential friend and ally to try and connect myself to for that post-segregation game, and I thought we were connecting really well. This is going to blur into question #3 below but I really believed it was a mutually beneficial plan, and I even put in a little work to prevent you from being the target from on the orange side during those rounds. But as far as I know, I was a main target in both rounds our plan was applicable. What happened?

Also please do an impression of me in your response. Make it good because my vote may depend on it.

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Yve

Even though I'm aware that you weren't really with me on the Jorgauhsdguhgaaishdgaosighda tribe, we were supposed to cockroach this entire game together but sadly I wasn't able to keep my end of that bargain and you were. I do see a lot of value in the game of having your name constantly thrown around but surviving through despite that, although it is probably very hard to shake off the perception of being called goat over and over and over throughout the entire game. I'm not ruling you out, however.

And I relate a lot to your trying to jump back into the game with this sea of sharks after your seven-year break and my six-year break. I get you. The rust was real.

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On to my questions:

1. A lot was made in this game and then amongst the jury in Ponderosa about pre-game alliances, connections, and relationships. I'd like you to be honest here and talk about the relationships and connections you had coming in. What were they? How did they benefit you? and how much of an advantage do you feel you had in this game by having them?

2. I get bored very easily so something I value in this game is when someone can play well while also being entertaining/funny. Please talk about a particular moment in this game where you were at your most entertaining. If you can't come up with a moment where you were entertaining in a public setting, please feel free to talk about a moment/story where you were entertaining otherwise.

3. There wasn't enough JEFF when I CTRL+F'd "JEFF" in your opening statements so I want that to change by asking a totally Jeff-centric question. Please talk about the first two merge rounds and why the target was so squarely on me, your role on it being there (if applicable), and how it affected (positively or negatively) your game for me to be voted out.

GG to all three of you and best of luck!

[Russell]

Chris, if you recall during the Nepal FTC, you announced I was out of the running for your vote and didn't even do me the courtesy of asking me a question. I thought that was a dick move. I had half a mind to come in here and complete the circle by doing the same to you, but I don't really have interest in being a dick right now. But please know that is weighing on my mind.

Hey Jeff, Nepal was a long time ago and I was a young closet-case with a lot of anger and a lot of issues. I've forgiven myself for the dark parts of who I was when I was younger, but I still expect to be held accountable for them. I respect your decision if you choose to deviate your vote away from me, but hopefully you at least give me a listen.

I also relate to the strategy of trying to play the game as a wolf dressed in sheep's goat's clothing. But again, if that wasn't a game you felt was worthy of consideration of your vote when you were the juror and I was the finalist, why should I now?

I am also reminded of a conversation we had in the game about our biggest flaws in the game and I told you I was too trusting in people and always believed them, which is true (see: the in-roads I thought I had with other purple people/Steph below). But with you, every time you spoke game to me I felt like you were lying or blowing smoke up my ass. On more than a few occasions, you'd be talking game to me in one IM and, at the very same time, I'd have someone else talking to me in another IM and they would completely contradict you, while you were still talking to me, and I know I wasn't the only one to feel this way. I'm not sure I see the good gameplay in alienating half the tribe.

I'll be honest, Jeff, I was really upset with you at the swap and I'm low-key shocked that this is how you feel. I was on the bottom of original Munin and, at the swap, I had connected with you and Cochran more than anyone else in the game at that point. Cochran and I spoke for hours one night and you and I (I thought) had a really great conversation as well.

So when it came time to actually discuss strategy, Jeff, you absolutely shut me down. I asked Cochran if I could be saved and he said, talk strategy with Jeff, so I did. I remember this conversation VIVIDLY because I was so enraged. I would send you these long-ass soliloquies about what I wanted to do and you would respond with one-word answers. Then, I found out that you and Cochran were telling Yve and Tammy that you still wanted me gone even before I won immunity. I actually felt super betrayed because I was fully down to ride-or-die with you and Cochran there.

If everything that I said came across disingenuous, that sucks, because it wasn't. I felt like you guys had led me on, and when I found out that you wanted me out and that Joaq had an idol, there was no doubt in my mind that I wouldn't be working with you. You are right, however, in that there is a switch in me. It goes from full trust and, if I feel like you've broken it, then I will lead you on and blow smoke. I don't regret it with Kim or Cass, but I do regret it with you if you were, in fact, genuine.

[Russell]

I'll get to the next few in a few, but I wanted to answer that while I was still emotionally riled up from Cass' question <3

[Russell]

On to my questions:

1. A lot was made in this game and then amongst the jury in Ponderosa about pre-game alliances, connections, and relationships. I'd like you to be honest here and talk about the relationships and connections you had coming in. What were they? How did they benefit you? and how much of an advantage do you feel you had in this game by having them?

The pre-game connections I had coming into this game were primarily Val and Stephenie, who as I found out later, had a lot of these things with other people. I think these relationships did help me get through the first vote on Munin, but otherwise, not really. Val had a lot of higher priorities than me and went out in that wild merge vote. Steph and I's connection was only base on me hosting her and she was in my game currently. I don't think this connection helped much either because our conversations in the game were super limited.

2. I get bored very easily so something I value in this game is when someone can play well while also being entertaining/funny. Please talk about a particular moment in this game where you were at your most entertaining. If you can't come up with a moment where you were entertaining in a public setting, please feel free to talk about a moment/story where you were entertaining otherwise.

One of the things I was most disappointed about in this game was how serious everyone took themselves. I think there were a lot of egos and that's just not me; I'm happy to make fun of myself, I'm happy to play up a character or bit, whatever.

I think the TC with the whispers was probably the largest aspect of this. I initially flubbed up my first whisper and, for fun, I pretty much just kept sending fake whispers by "fucking up" the text.

Another time was, during the live numbers challenge, where I attempted to make it styled in the form of the Survivor All-Stars mix and match game, but the only person who bit was Cassandra.

3. There wasn't enough JEFF when I CTRL+F'd "JEFF" in your opening statements so I want that to change by asking a totally Jeff-centric question. Please talk about the first two merge rounds and why the target was so squarely on me, your role on it being there (if applicable), and how it affected (positively or negatively) your game for me to be voted out.

Not to reopen old wounds, but I remember in Nepal that you put a lot of effort into controlling your allies but had specifically dismissed me. I definitely should've given you a chance for my vote, but that doesn't mean the frustration I felt wasn't necessarily valid. It worked out for you there, because the people you put the effort into burned bridges and you didn't with anyone except me, really.

I think you made a similar choice here and it went the other way. You played pretty rigidly at the swap with trying to control the Fenrirs to go against the Munins when the game was already intermixing. I think it's showcased by the fact that you believe that I was the one going around lying when I was just kind of sitting there telling people what they wanted to hear, and that Yve and Tammy were the ones approaching me and Joaq. Everyone else was comparing notes with each other except for you and Cochran, who were only taking notes from Yve and Tammy; your narrative was entirely clouted by what they were telling you.

I think you left at the merge because you didn't have any connections with the Munins. In my eyes, if I was going to be putting my neck on the line for anyone, it would've been Yve because she actually told me the truth (lol, mostly) on Jorg. Everyone else but you had someone to advocate for them so that they could keep their options open.

I think your way of playing and my of playing are diametrically opposed in every way. I'll tell anyone what they want to hear, work with anyone, vote anyone. You are a little more risk-averse and I just don't think this was the game to be risk-averse.

[Yve]

1. A lot was made in this game and then amongst the jury in Ponderosa about pre-game alliances, connections, and relationships. I'd like you to be honest here and talk about the relationships and connections you had coming in. What were they? How did they benefit you? and how much of an advantage do you feel you had in this game by having them?

I love this question, because I know it's not a secret that I came into Fenrir with absolutely no connections outside of kind of knowing who Tammy was, but not remembering why. We swapped to JoriaMorgendorffer where I continued to have no connections (outside of Joaquin and Russell both living in the same city as me- how nuts is that?). Once we merged, Melinda and Catalie both came to me on their own, separately, to tell me they knew me. Ultimately, from what they told me, they were the two stray votes that allowed us to boot Val at the merge, and they did it because they knew they could use my vote later on down the line due to our past connection.

Of course, after that round, the three of us were a mess and never worked together cohesively again. if anything, outside of the merge round, the three of us working together was not viable for any of us any longer. As you all saw in the votes after.

Outside of that, I knew none of you aside from the your respective game synopsis from the Stranded website.

2. I get bored very easily so something I value in this game is when someone can play well while also being entertaining/funny. Please talk about a particular moment in this game where you were at your most entertaining. If you can't come up with a moment where you were entertaining in a public setting, please feel free to talk about a moment/story where you were entertaining otherwise.

I hate boring gameplay, and I feel like there is a fine line between entertainment and fun for everyone, or being fun and entertaining at someone else's expense. In "Mean Girls," Cady discovers that it doesn't matter what she thinks of someone else, calling someone ugly wasn't going to make her prettier. Saying someone is dumb doesn't make you more intelligent.

That being said, I feel like I'm just a goofy person in general. I always try to make light of a situation, or call out something if people are being too serious about it. I think that's advantageous to my game, because sometimes confronting a problem head-on with humor, can allow you to solve the problem easily. Especially when it comes to social problems. A lot of people are so afraid of confrontation- I'm not afraid of it at all. Confront me, and I'll reply with a smile, because in the end we both want the same thing- to get along.

Oh god, I'm on a tangent and I'm pretty sure I haven't answered your question at all. One of my favorite moments was when everyone was being super serious about the idol hunt around the final 6 or so. In the challenge thread, I openly posted a photograph of the password for the idol, showing that I knew where it was and that I knew that it had been found. I personally thought it was hilarious.

Also, when I pretended to Jenna Lewis myself to Poody because I had almost won, outside of a technicality, in the challenge where we had to stack. I was terrified that people might see me as a challenge threat, so my only chance was to pick a fight with the host. I also thought that was entertaining and funny.

3. There wasn't enough JEFF when I CTRL+F'd "JEFF" in your opening statements so I want that to change by asking a totally Jeff-centric question. Please talk about the first two merge rounds and why the target was so squarely on me, your role on it being there (if applicable), and how it affected (positively or negatively) your game for me to be voted out.
GG to all three of you and best of luck!

Oh, I must've accidentally made all of the hidden whispers to Poody instead of you! My bad. One paragraph was literally just the word "Jeff" over and over again.

SO! The merge was fun, wasn't it? Because NuFenrir had voted with each other, and NuMunin never had to go to tribal, no one had betrayed anyone or showed their hand in any way. The majority of them had the oldMunin connection, so they weren't about to mess with a good thing, especially when oldMunin had a numbers advantage.

Then we had the Jordyshore tribe and our messiness entering the ring. Juaq and Russ were easily brought back into the fold, and Tammy followed along as someone who was decidedly in the middle, but as someone who would potentially vote with oldMunin at the merge. That left just you and I. And considering I was not great in challenges, you were the target between the two of us.

It's almost a blessing that you won immunity, and the target shifted to me. That allowed for the two stray votes to not go my way, and we both survived through tribal council. Had you not won immunity, I doubt Melinda or Cat would have voted outside of oldMunin and you would have been taken out.

The next round, everyone defaulted back to you as the target- especially since you had won immunity previously. Cristina was the swing vote, and although it seemed like she might vote with us, she ultimately decided not to vote with the Fenrirs. As far as the rest of my game without you, I'm sorry to say that you getting voted out definitely had a positive impact on the rest of the game for me. A lot of the focus toward the middle of the merge was on eliminating pairs, and I had enough issues to deal with at the time without that adding to the pile. We would have definitely been a pair.

I had very little power or influence in those first two rounds at the merge, and I wasn't excited to lose the one person I had played the whole game with up to that point. The evolution of our conversations was fantastic- from very deadpan, to us just being completely open and honest with each other. At least, that was true from my perspective. Sure, I would have voted for Cochran at the swap, but I've never said I would have voted for you. And no one has ever asked me, but I'm sure you know what the answer to that would be.

Before you left, you gave me an amazing and brief pep talk about how we would cockroach to the end together, and that always played in the back of my mind every time I survived another tribal council without you. So thank you for that.

[Stephanie]

Hey Jeff! So I'm going to address your statement to me in question #3 as, like you said, it's intertwined, so I'll answer it all together.

1. A lot was made in this game and then amongst the jury in Ponderosa about pre-game alliances, connections, and relationships. I'd like you to be honest here and talk about the relationships and connections you had coming in. What were they? How did they benefit you? and how much of an advantage do you feel you had in this game by having them?

So I'll run through the jury and fellow finalists and give my two cents on the extent of the relationships I had with them coming into the game.

Cristina: We maybe played together like twice, years back? In Bloo's World. But we weren't close, and had a much better relationship here. Legit I don't think we even talked about it because it seemed pointless, so maybe she doesn't even remember.
Melinda: I think we just played once, where we made it to the end together and she won. Probably like a me and Yve type relationship where we never met until the merge and didn't vote the same way the whole way through, rather than being especially in-sync allies.
Tammy: We've crossed paths a few times before in Catalie's games but honestly we've never had the chance to be close allies or anything, and I'm sure she would agree.
Catalie: I've played many of her games and played with her many times, including making the end with her once like a year and a half ago. Some experiences were good and others not so much.
Kim: Off the top of my head we've played together maybe like three times? I don't think we were especially close in the others and we both saw this as the closest we've been.
Russell: I think we played together once ever before this? A game where I was second boot, if that even counts. I have played for him before, including his game which finished when this one started.

I mean, no offence to any of those people but I'm sure they'd agree we didn't exactly have a close friendship coming into this that'd define our in-game relationship, nor was it some shoe-in alliance because I played game X with them five years ago where we weren't even close and maybe interacted for like three rounds. Catalie and I were close by virtue of us spending the entire pre-merge together and our journey through NuFenrir and losing Val first up at the merge, that type of thing would make any two people into a duo.

I'd say for Catalie and I knowing our past experiences did help us together in that we knew we generally worked well together from the same side, and I know she's a fantastic ally to those she pledges her allegiance to and is a strategic and social force, so I knew from our past that teaming up with Catalie from day one would be advantageous. I can't speak for Russell but maybe him seeing me play his series made him inclined to work with me if he likes my style. I kind of doubt it but really not sure, we didn't even trust each other for chunks of this game honestly. Again, this was the first time I've properly played with him so I didn't really know what to expect with him. And Melinda, well it didn't hurt the one time we'd played together we made the end, so I think we both knew that success was in the cards if we teamed up, which is arguably something we used to our advantage.

You, Val, Penner, Loveita, Joaquin, Cassandra and Yve I've never played with or spoken to in any capacity before this, to my best knowledge, but as I answered in my response to Joaquin, Loveita and Val were two of my closest friends and allies in this throughout and I stayed loyal to them and voted alongside them the nights they were eliminated, so I was never set on aligning those I knew ahead of those I didn't, loved meeting new people and was very open to playing with anyone who was wanting to play with me.

Did these past relationships hurt me? No, there was never any bad blood to the point where I felt someone would specifically gun for me as payback for a past game. It doesn't hurt to see a familiar face you have some experience with, so if that can be seen as an advantage, sure. I'm not going to pretend that past relationships aren't a factor, past games aren't talked about because that's the case in any Open ID game. I was certainly trying to keep track of people who'd played multiple Stranded seasons together and whatnot, because in terms of this series the only "connection" (which wasn't even a positive or negative one, we barely met in Namibia) I had was with Cochran and we never even got to play together here and some of the others have played a bunch of seasons together. So I'd be guilty of trying to piece together who knows who as well because obviously these are things to come into mind, but at the end of the day I expected people to play for their own best interests above all and take this game at face value, which was my approach too.

2. I get bored very easily so something I value in this game is when someone can play well while also being entertaining/funny. Please talk about a particular moment in this game where you were at your most entertaining. If you can't come up with a moment where you were entertaining in a public setting, please feel free to talk about a moment/story where you were entertaining otherwise.

Well, I'd rather bring it back to you because obviously we didn't have a ton of time together, a mere two rounds but I did thoroughly enjoy our social connection for what it was worth, even though we unfortunately weren't able to develop a strategic one. I do think our "ice breaker" game to impersonate each of the pre-jurors we knew, who the other hadn't met (Courtney, Kim Spradlin, Mookie for you, and then Penny and Ziggy for me, and I think Cochran too even though I "knew" him from Namibia).

In a lot of ways it was super dumb and silly but that's the way I like it, and I think lightened the mood for us and broke the ice. And then you went and did the challenge right after and said you crushed it and I deserved "half-credit" and I told you I deserved full credit because my impressions were obviously spot on and helped you.

And then I said if you win you should give me the necklace for my efforts and I said it looks better on you anyway (trying to do a Penny and flirt with you!) and you were like "W t f please tell me you don't actually find Varner attractive?!?!" and I promised you I didn't, lol, and was just teasing. And then you did win the challenge! And as you knew you were likely getting the votes that went Yve's way that round, so I saw the humor in the situation all around and hoped you did too.

So seeing as you get bored easily I hope I entertained you and you had fun with that conversation because you did me! It was a fun little game to play to get us comfortable and open up to each other and made me feel that had we'd been faced with a different dynamic we could've developed that social relationship even further and possibly develop a strategic one. Unfortunately it just wasn't meant to be.

In terms of other moments I was funny in public, well when I said *whispers to poody's client* when he asked us to not talk to them (Sapphire Elevator) during the whisperfest when Val got booted, that got a bunch of likes from the other players, hosts and viewers so I'd like to think they thought that was funny because I was trying to be humorous!

3. There wasn't enough JEFF when I CTRL+F'd "JEFF" in your opening statements so I want that to change by asking a totally Jeff-centric question. Please talk about the first two merge rounds and why the target was so squarely on me, your role on it being there (if applicable), and how it affected (positively or negatively) your game for me to be voted out.

So as I said, I'm addressing both your statement to me and this question in one fell swoop because it ties in together. I already addressed this in question two, but I really did feel great about our conversations and enjoyed them thoroughly, a genuine friendship was quickly forming between us and I had no doubts we would've hit it off had we had pre-merge time together, because we already were making up ground and trying to see if we could bridge our games together despite contrasting allegiances.

When you came to me about protecting each other the first few rounds of the merge and then develop that into something stronger as we head deep into the merge, I really wanted that for us. Unfortunately, there were a few things which weren't working in your favor which weren't even necessarily in your control or anything you did wrong.

Firstly, your swap tribe was the only one which had any real drama/dissension that appeared to be coming into the merge, and the rest of us were all made well aware of Joaquin's idol play and Tammy voting with him and Russell, against you, Cochran and Yve. On the other hand, Catalie, Val and I were obviously a trio who had worked together to eliminate Alex, Aubry and Courtney, and the six NuMunin hadn't had to test their waters seeing as they never went to Tribal Council, so they were able to keep up the pretence of being unified for at least the time being as no lines had officially been drawn.

The merge dynamic was never going to be straightforward with all the interwoven connections, and obviously fourteen is a monumental step up from the smaller tribes we were just experiencing, but unfortunately, I think Jormungand got the focus put on them where it was already seen as a divided tribe, so the impression I got was people saw the value in taking advantage of that while the dust settles and a more clear dynamic develops.

The other thing working against you was the Munin/Fenrir divide, which was 8-6 in favor of Munin. These tribal lines were never going to hold up forever, and obviously I voted out a bunch of Munin before Fenrir, flipped to the three Fenrir at final seven against the three Munin, to vote off Joaquin. But sure, as soon as we merged, obviously amongst all the Munin there were discussions of the eight of us sticking together for the first couple of votes. I felt pretty good about most people within the tribe given my ranking in round three so didn't really feel a specific urge to flip or take out any of them without any indication they were planning the same to me.

Tammy was obviously a no-go as an option seeing as she'd flipped to vote with Joaquin/Russell against Cochran and I'd already heard she wasn't a fan of Penner, so she was seen as someone more in the middle. So really that only left you and Yve, and then Cassandra/Kim/Penner. Honestly if I were to solely pick the target at this point, I had more going with you than I did with Cassandra/Penner or even Yve at this point, but I do think NuMunin had an agreement and any talks of doing Cassandra/Penner weren't met with any assurance to where I'd sure the plan would actually work, and I didn't want to risk one of my pre-merge allies leaving.

There were other factors too, like speculation one of Cassandra/Kim/Penner had to have the OG Fenrir idol (I guess that thing was never found, lol?), given we knew Russell's OG Munin idol lasted three rounds, and for Cassandra/Kim/Penner, the merge vote was their Tribal Council. Putting votes on them would be extremely risky and again, risking one of my pre-merge allies from leaving and I didn't want that, as what happened with Val was definitely a letdown and that's exactly what I wanted to avoid. And not to mention Joaquin/Russell weren't putting up any resistance to put the hit on you and Yve despite just coming off the tribe with you.

So once the Val disaster happened and I lost someone I'd been with the entire game and trusted to have my back, honestly I was pretty annoyed the Munin group fucked up a simple plan when we had a clear majority, and made it no secret I wanted us to get our shit together the next time around and vote seven strong on a Fenrir to avoid a similar Val situation happening if people strayed. Based on you being the primary target the previous round, I think that was just an easy excuse to make you the target the next time around. I know that's not really fair and you didn't even do anything wrong, but there was just an urgency for a Fenrir to go at that point so the numbers didn't get tied up 6-6 after we had 8-6.

So I really am sorry that I wasn't able to uphold my end of the deal and give you protection from the Munin side of things, because I did see it as genuine on your part given we were connecting in a social sense before you pitched that, and not something you were just running around saying to all the Munin out of desperation. In a world where you were able to survive that round before the tribal lines dissolved I'd like to think we would've had more wiggle room to play together deeper into the merge, but it wasn't meant to be. I hope this sheds some light into my thought process those two rounds though and you can understand where I'm coming from and why it ultimately made sense for my game in terms of my path towards making it to the end here.

Also please do an impression of me in your response. Make it good because my vote may depend on it.

Eep, pressure's on!

"Well I may have narrowly beaten my pre-game prediction of getting 15th place so I'm counting that as a win and yolo I don't need $200 am i right????? I already won and some might agree 2014 was the best year to win Stranded anyway. Too bad I DIDNT end up in 15th place or else I would've been in the pre-jury with Penny like the good old days the first round of Fenrir and reunite with my one true love after she left me on READ when she PROMISED to talk game with me. Smh. Plus it would've been nice to get away from the rest of the jurors who avoided me the entire two rounds I was in the merge like I had COVID or something!!!"

Now it feels full circle! I hope that's a good enough impression to earn your vote just as my impressions of Courtney/Mookie/Spradlin were good enough to win you the challenge, right?!?!

[Jeff]

Thank you guys for such thorough answers. I think all three of you did a good job addressing each of my questions. I'll close this thread out with some closing remarks that I'm not looking for responses to (so please don't).

Russ, I disagree with a lot of what you said in your answer to #3 and our perceptions really don't match up. That said, I appreciate your other answers and perspective here, and really appreciate how real and emotive your answers were. I'm definitely listening to your answers here and in other threads.

Steph, as much as I want to do so, it's hard for me to say you voting me out (or at least fighting to save me) there was a mistake as you're sitting here now. I will say though that I am disappointed because I was being legit with you and was looking forward to things getting messy and was really looking forward to being a messy boy. And your impression here is great! Certainly much better than the other ones you did! Lol I archived yours in my confessionals so we could go back and laugh at them.

Yve, on a human note, as you, Tammy, and Cochran know (and maybe others, I dunno), I had a small anxiety attack leading up to the Cochran tribal council - well before it even started. It was such a relief afterwards to come down from that and talk to you and trust you weren't lying to me, as I felt the others were. It stung a little to hear you were angling to jump ship during that time - not because of the game or any alliance reasons, but because it made me reconsider how real you were being during a time that I super super super just needed you to be real and with me in that moment. So I appreciate knowing, even though you wanted Cochran out which is whatever, that you were still being real with me in that moment. And I want to acknowledge to you that I appreciate you being there with me in that moment - even if I didn't say so in that moment or even really let you know that I had lost control of my mental health for a time there.


Largely because of that, I'm going to hang up the cleats, and (re-)retire from these games - if you can even call it retiring after 2 games. I got to experience being voted out and being blindsided (yes really) which are experiences I probably could've done without lol but helped to give me a fuller experience, and experience more of what it'd be like to live out my dream of being a contestant on my favorite TV show. Thanks to poody and co. for having me back, and cheers to the new friends I made through this game.


I wish you three the best of luck, and I'll see you on the other side. GG!

[Cassandra]

Here's an impression for you.

durr hurr hurr i'm poody i'm the host but i'm late and i'm making everyone wait blah blah blah *fart noises*