I can't believe I made the merge in an all winner's season
I honestly didn't expect to make it this far because I think I underestimated how much of a target I am for some people? Like, I genuinely had no idea I was considered a threat in this game. I thought that I would be able to play under the radar for most of the game and try to avoid having my name come up, but that instantly stopped being a possibility. Penner brought my name up for the second vote, Cass told me that there was a lot of "watch out for Tammy!" going on at Fenrir, Ziggy called me out when he left for being dangerous, and Natalie told me that Courtney was dead-set on killing me if she got to the merge. I've never even met Courtney? What the fuck? So I'm not feeling comfortable in this merge because I think there could be eyes on me for being a big threat in this. I don't feel like I've done anything to earn that threat status here yet, but that doesn't matter if it's what people feel.
So, relationships...
Kim is by far my closest ally in this. I think she's the person that has the most similar outlook on people as me. We're both skeptical of the Fenrir because of how majorly shady they all are, but we're also not Munin, and neither of us wants to have to rely on them to carry us in this. After that, I have a pretty solid relationship with
Catalie and
Stephanie because we're in similar social circles outside of this game. But that doesn't mean it will carry us through this, and it's very likely it could come back to bite me if people want to split that up.
So instead I'm working hard on
Joaquin and
Russell, who I obviously have a foot in the door with already from our time at Jorg, and I think that the two of them should trust me somewhat. I think that flipping to them the night that I did might have been the decision that will make or break my chances at winning this game. Cochran would have left anyway because of Joaq's idol, but I was able to gain their trust. At the same time, I think the
Jeff, Yve, Cass and Penner group of Fenrir trust me a lot less because of it. Which sucks because even though I don't trust any of them and I know they've been plotting against me this whole game, I still wanted the option to work with them if I could.
Melinda, Cristina, Loveita and Val are all kind of up in the air for me. Those are the relationships I need to start really working on. Val has some connection to Cat & Steph so I'm hoping that they'll put in a good word for me there and that can be some sort of bridge. Cristina seems to have built something with Kim as well. So I'm working on it. I'm trying to cover all my bases so that I'm good tonight, but who knows if it will work. These are winners and they're all super smart, I wouldn't be shocked for a second if they turned this whole thing upside down and I go home tonight. So I'm just trying to stay on my toes and make sure it's not me tonight.